29!

Just when I thought it is gonna be just another ordinary day, it turned out to be one of the most celebrated birthdays I had. 😊

What else could be more meaningful than celebrating your special day with the ones you love the most? I had the chance to celebrate mine with my family and with the love of my life, Leo.

Dec.5. My siblings planned a birthday dinner. Their treat. ^__^. We went to a hotel resort somewhere in the city. The place is cozy. Ambiance is relaxing and offers a club-like vibe yet very calm and refreshing. Food is perfect. Authentic korean food it is. Something new and interesting to try. It has been awhile since we last went out complete, hence, making the experience meaningful.

Dec. 6. Honey brought me to a place I've never been before. Harbor View Restaurant. I love the concept of the place. It's basically enjoying sumptuous food with the perfect scenic view by the bay. The calmness of the water gives a perfect delightful mood.

Food is great. So much variations to choose. It was really an experience, indeed.

Dec. 7. Birthday sex.^_^ I literally welcomed my 29th year with a bang! Honey is super sexy. Oozing with sex appeal. It was one of the best sex we had. I'll just leave it there. 😁

This year has been a year worth celebrating. Too many lessons learned. Many experiences worth remembering. And as my age moves to another year forward, I know this will be more interesting year ahead. Aging is truly a privilege.

To honey, thank you for coming into my life. I know I'll be spending more birthdays and the rest of my life with you. I love you.

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Special day has always been just another ordinary day. Nothing special. Hope this one's gonna be different.

Question Mark

Few days from now, I'll be turning 29.  Maybe that's the reason why I've been thinking random thoughts lately. Random things. Mostly questions. Questions I've yet to answer. Questions like, how I've lived my life so far? Was I able to achieve what I envisioned to achieve when I was young? Am I doing the right thing for my future? Am I really happy with my career? Do I make my parents proud? Am I ready enough to face whatever will come in my life?

All these and other petty, sometimes silly things have been popping out on my thought bubble. Maybe this is what they call quarter-life crisis(?). A phase in life where one asses his life and seeks direction as to how he's lived and how he will live, in all aspects of life. A feeling of being trapped by personal life choices arises. The feeling of as if you are not in personal control of your life.

At nearly 29y/o, I feel like I should have been way more than I am by now. I should be getting more than what I already have. I should be doing things I've always wanted to do. At this age, I should have achieved my goals. But no, not yet. I feel like being left behind.

Yes, I have my dream job. The job I've worked hard to get. The profession I always wanted to practice. But am I happy? I used to. I was happy and contented, then. Now, it's as if I'm like a tree. Steady. Not moving. I think it's human nature to want something more once we get what we used to want.

However, having all these thoughts in mind, I know I am better than this. I can do something.

It's time to take control.

Time to understand that this feeling of uncertain state actually represents an opportunity to live better on so many levels. It is an opportunity to break out of older social patterns I previously thought I should follow as my life’s course. Time to rebuild my life. Develop new commitments more attuned to my interests and aspirations.

I've come to realized that the most efficient place to start resolving these thoughts and feelings is personal surety of self. Changing how I  live to be what I truly want to be is the most efficient path to take in making things better.

I may not be the person I've always wanted to be, but I know I'll get there. I will.

"I'm still working on my masterpiece."