Uncertainty

I recently quit my job.

I was stressed. Burned out. I was unhappy. Everything seems to be not working right. The passion to work with that company has died.

Hence, I quit.

Knowing that this will be a risky decision, I still quit. It was not an impetuous decision, I can say. I've thought of this for a couple of months perhaps. Too many things and turn out of events that lead me to this action.

Though I am jobless now, I have plans. Too many things I want to do. I plan to venture on a new endeavor. I plan to change the working environment I am sick and tired of. I want to have a new source of income. A much easier and fulfilling ways to pay my bills.

But it ain't easy.

It's like challenges after every challenges. Too many obstacles along the path.

The feeling of uncertainty arises. I've been thinking now if I made the right decision. If I am doing the right thing. If this is really for me.

No one knows what the future holds. We can not tell what will happen next. Some say you just have to go with the flow. But for me, only dead fishes go with the flow.

Amidst all these challenges, I am thankful I have a supportive partner, Leo. I also get support from my family, but knowing that he is always here for me is really what gives me strength to not give up on whatever I want to pursue.

I am not sure if I can make this, but I can say, at least I tried. Whatever happens, I guess I'll just charge it to experience and move to next the plan. I am standing this decision.

We can't always make the right decision, but we can make every decision right.

Best Partner Ever

After my heart-damaging break up with my 4-year relationship, I kind of thought that no one will ever love me, or will even like me.  I'm flawed. Scarred.  Imperfect. Immature. Aloof. Not good-looking. Not that smart. Not that tall. In other words, very much unlikable. I've been rejected couple of times. And so by then, I was slowly accepting the fact that I might be single and lonely for the rest of my life.

But I was wrong.

Just when I thought there's no one for me, you came along. You came in to my life and changed eveything.

You met me when I was at the lowest point of my life. I was at the worse of my worst. You've seen how badly crashed and broken I was then. And yet you chose to pursue me. You chose to fix me. You didn't give up.

You have shown me different perspectives in life. In love. In everything. And the day that we became officially couple is one of the happiest days in my existence.

You are the best partner ever. I feel happy and privileged that I am yours and you are mine. I appreciate eveything about you. Those efforts on your part just to see me. Our everyday exchanges of I Love You's. Our nightly conversation about anything and everything as you drive your way home. Your simple message when you are busy at work. You being patient with me when I'm being maarte. You taking care of me when we're together. The food that you cook for me (kahit minsan feeling mo hindi ako nasasarapan sa luto mo, pero na-a-appreciate ko 'yon). Your selfies. Your song covers on smule and soundcloud. Your hugs. Kisses. Everything!

You are very supportive. You are always there every time I need motivation. You are the one pushing me when I'm about to give up. Making me feel that I can do things I thought I can't. You believed in me.

Honey, you are my inspiration. You are the reason I believe in love again. You are the reason why I believe in my self. Since I have your love my life has changed for the better. I am happier than before and I feel motivated to be better every day.

No words can describe how thankful I am for your love. For everything.

Love is not really a mystery. It is a process like anything else. A process that requires trust, effort, focus and commitment by two willing partners. And Ni, let me tell you this, YOU ARE THE BEST PARTNER EVER.

I love you, LEO.